1. !

    !

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  2. cigarettesandarose:

Sad black and white blog.

    cigarettesandarose:

    Sad black and white blog.

    3 days ago  /  83,361 notes  /  Source: alltimexho

  3. it’s just
    you said you’d listen to my story
    after you were done on the phone but
    when i came back you asked what was
    “so goddamn important”
    i couldn’t stop nagging you about it
    and since it was something stupid i was just hoping
    would make you laugh so
    i told you to forget about it

    it’s just
    you said you’d read my writing and
    not laugh at it but in reality
    i’ve never stopped being a joke in this family
    because in middle school i wrote dark short stories
    where the main character died and yeah in retrospect
    maybe that’s funny but
    there’s also a reason why since then i don’t
    show you anything because at thirteen hearing you
    refuse to take my work seriously
    didn’t really make me feel like laughing

    it’s just
    you said that school was important but
    at the same time would get so pissed at me
    if i stayed up doing homework
    all i would hear is “why didn’t you start this
    earlier” and when i tried to explain i had other things to do
    i was told “i don’t want to hear it just get it done”
    and when i ever mentioned that i was stressed to the point
    of breaking into glass pieces
    you always rolled your eyes and said “you don’t even
    know what stress is” even though when i asked for help on projects
    you’d barely even look at it before
    deciding it was too difficult

    it’s just
    you’ve never said
    that you’re proud of me
    only told me the things i should be fixing like
    how i’m kind of getting a tummy and my hair is always
    messy and how i’ll never get married if i don’t start
    being more mature and how i need to work on being
    the perfect student or i’ll never amount to anything and
    i need to patch up my personality

    i don’t know but
    when you asked me why i’ve been
    “so distant lately it’s kind of bitchy”
    i got as far as
    “it’s just”
    before you said
    “don’t start with me.”

    i don’t know what you want. i wish i could just
    leave.

    :(

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  5. For every Reblog 1$ will be donated to my autistic brothers fundraiser :)

    mitchlions:

    doctor10by10:

    finnkurtismydrug:

    gayasthefourthofjuly7:

    image

    99% of people won’t reblog this because they think it’ll make their blog look as shitty as their heart.

    Reblogging because I care, not because of the guilt trip ^

    Same as above.

    I think it’s good tumblr is being used to raise money for someone with a disability =).

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  6. I cared once. Fucked me up.
    – (via teeexox)

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  8. !

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  9. My brother killed himself
    on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
    and I missed four days of work
    and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
    My brother
    he was always a fan of beauty
    but what he did
    was not beautiful at all.

    And last week I got the news
    that one of my good friends from high school
    had overdosed
    (again)
    except this time
    she’d gone too far
    and now she was gone.
    And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
    and her mother
    hugged me tight
    and thanked me for coming to the service
    but I did not
    want to be there at all.
    This is not
    beautiful.

    The girl down the street
    would’ve turned 21 last year
    and I can scarcely imagine
    the wild times she would’ve
    (should’ve)
    had.
    But she is buried six feet deep
    after falling nearly 300
    and she did not leave a note.
    This is not
    beautiful.

    My freshman year of college
    and my roommate was beautiful
    and how I wanted to be just like her.
    But she wore herself down
    till she was
    almost invisible
    and if you blinked
    you had to go and find her all over again.
    So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
    but are paying her hospital bills
    watching their daughter crumble.
    This is not
    beautiful.

    So y’all can take your narcissistic
    romanticizing
    and glamorizing
    of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
    and shove them as far up your ass
    as you possibly can.
    Starvation is not beautiful.
    Killing yourself is not beautiful.
    Sadness
    is not beautiful.
    This note I am writing
    is not beautiful.

    But you
    you are beautiful
    and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

    – (via runiqu)

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    2 weeks ago  /  569,315 notes  /  Source: runiqu

  10. cutsandscarss:

tea-and—cigarettes:

feeling—super—suicidal:

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    cutsandscarss:

    tea-and—cigarettes:

    feeling—super—suicidal:

    -

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